Ensuring that Satan Cannot Prevail

Because God is still on His throne, the Russell family is still in tact, alive, and praising Him.

We praise the Lord that Tim is healthy and strong and holding up!  Outside of his usual allergy struggles, he is holding steady, doing well at work, and helping to keep our family running.

Joshua is doing fairly well.  He has had a few rough patches since his discharge from the hospital on Tuesday, but he's holding his own.  He went to school for half days Wednesday-Friday of this week to get him readjusted.  Next week, he will go back full-time.

David had to go back on another antibiotic.  He had his first infection since the beginning of November on Feb. 9 and was put on an antibiotic.  It was enough to clear up the tonsillitis but not enough to stop the sinus infection that was just brewing.  So, after finishing that 10-day treatment, his sinus infection went full-blown, so now he's on a stronger antibiotic for another 10-day treatment with a possible piggyback treatment if necessary.  He continues to do well with the weekly antibody transfusions.

Now after 4 months since my battle with the killer migraine and discovery of the brain lesion began, the saga continues.  I have yet to be pain-free for more than 4-5 hours at a time.  For the most part, when I am in pain, it is very manageable and not more than a 4 out of 10 on the pain scale typically.  That wasn't enough to make my neurologist happy when I saw her a week and a half ago, so she wanted me to go from 2 pills a day of Topamax (the seizure drug I've been on since mid-January that has made the pain be so well-controlled) to 3 pills a day despite my complaints of numbness/tingling from the middle of my shins down to my toes as well as in my finger tips.  The result of taking 3 pills made me go completely numb from my elbows and knees down and caused painful radiating pain that fires from my toes and fingers up into my knees and elbows respectively.  After suffering like that for 4 days with no noticeable difference in the pain level in my head, I decided to drop back to 2 pills.  The other deciding factor was that when I played the piano at church and lost the feeling in my hands, I could not feel the piano keys.  As a result, I was hitting all kinds of wrong notes since I couldn't feel which keys my fingers were on.  In addition, I was having a hard time driving when I would suddenly lose feeling in my foot and not be able to tell if my foot was on the gas or break pedal.  When I went back to 2 pills, the pain in my head increased considerably and became difficult to manage again.  My neurologist had me take a migraine drug along with 3 of the Topamax overnight Thursday to stop the pain.  The good news is that the drug regimen worked and didn't kill me.  The bad news is that my neurologist wants me to remain on 3 pills of Topamax a day despite my numbness issues but is leaving the decision up to me.  I can't function as a nurse or pianist not to mention drive without having feeling in my hands and feet, and although I'm told the drug company claims this complication is "temporary," I can't take my chances right now.  So, today I am back on 2 pills a day.  I will know for sure how bad the pain will get again by tomorrow when my drug levels should drop off again from having 3 pills in my system from Thursday night's drug regimen to stop the pain.

At this point, we still don't have answers as to what has caused this strange migraine pain and what the lesion is in my brain.  I will have a repeat MRI done in April to see if the lesion has changed at all.  It will need to be monitored for changes every so often until the doctors can figure out what it is and know how to treat it.

In going through these current difficulties, I stumbled upon my old file of poems that I had written years ago.  I am amazed at how the trials from long ago seemed so huge back then but now in light of the ones of late, I see that God was using the ones from years past as small stepping stones to prepare me for the mountains of trials He has me facing today.  Just as I had determined back then, I stay resolved today:  No matter how hard Satan may try to attack my faith and pull me down, Satan Cannot Prevail!

                 Satan Cannot Prevail

              By: Christine Benedict Russell

While I was on the road to doing God's will,

Satan felt he had a duty to fulfill --

Keep me from the straight and narrow path

Or make me face his great and mighty wrath.

I resolved to stand firm with God

While on His precious Word I trod.

Out came Satan's fiery weapons,

But God wanted to teach me some lessons.

I must have faith

To finish this race.

There are many mountains to cross

And swim I must on waves that toss.

Satan cannot prevail,

For my God I will not fail.

Victory will be forever mine

With God in control for all time.

©1999. Russell. September 30, 1999.